Wondering

I have spent the last couple days with my head full of thoughts. I am sure I am not that only mother out there that gets in this mood. My mind in rushing with

Why do I get to be a mom?

Why do I get to have 5 healthy, amazing babies?

Why is my husband just what I need?

How can I ever deserve the life I live?

What can I do to help even that playing field?

Will I ruin these sweet things sent from heaven as I am "bossing" them all around?

What does is mean that my children ask me if "mean MOM" is in the house?

What am I doing wrong that is soooo obvious to everyone else, but I simply do not see it?

How will my heart not explode the next time my babies tell me they love me?

How can I let my sweetheart know how much I appreciate what he does for ME?

Why am I so lost?

I feel like someone is talking to me right now. He has something He wants me to understand and do. I sure hope I figure it out before I screw it all up.

My life is pretty amazing, not perfect, but amazing.

Thank you....